My baby is 1!

Oh how sad ladies! My "not so" little Gabi is officially 1 today! We had a good day today. Her grandpa is here so this morning we watched her play with all of her new toys, including the tissue paper and bags that they came in! Then we headed over to the church for Hillfest which is a free festival that Northview puts on every year. She walked around and danced to the music. Then we came home and her sister and daddy came over and we grilled out and tried the cake thing again with her since at her party she could have cared less! She ate some of the icing and then smeared the rest on her face! Too cute! Then to the bathtub she went! She has a doctor appt. in the morning anyway, so she needed to be clean! Then tonight, shortly before the actual time she was born (10:40 p.m.) I went into her room and picked her up and rocked her and sang Happy Birthday to her! She never even budged! Thank goodness, right?! I guess it's a good thing my dad is here or I would be a blubbering mess! I just love her and I am sad to think that the rest of her life will go this fast! Now the teenage years can go really fast, but the other times need to go slow! Goodnight!

Gotta love the double standard!

Okay, so most of you reading this know the lovely relationship that M* (aka, my baby daddy) and I have. And if don't let me try and catch you up to speed! Here goes.....got pregnant, M* thought I did it on purpose and got mad, found a married woman to start messing around with in the beginning of my pregnancy who ended up being a little psycho and now will not leave the picture however, who knows what M* is REALLY saying to her! I have come to the realization that M* is a pathological liar and I cannot trust a word he says.....now, if that would only keep me from letting my guard down and having meaningless sex with him from time to time that would be great! Okay so let's get back on track here! So here we are.....a couple of months ago I signed up with e-Harmony and was e-mailing two guys who I never ended up going out with or even actually talking to...the main reason being that I just didn't feel any connection with them and I didn't feel like they were important enough for me to take even more time away from G*! I had already stopped e-mailing them when one day M* asked me if I was seeing anyone, to which I answered "no." Then he asked if I was talking to anyone, to which I again answered "no." (At least one of us can tell the truth in this whole thing.) He said that someone had come up to him in the gym and asked him if we were together because one of this guys friends had been e-mailing me! Seriously, I can't even e-mail someone without him finding out...what is up with that? He (M*) said that it didn't make him happy and he doesn't like the thought of me going out with someone else, but he knows that he can't say anything! True that buddy!! So, I stopped my subscription to e Harmony until a few weeks ago when after having a few drinks with some friends I thought I needed to sign up again! So on Saturday night I had logged onto my account and was answering the initial questions asked by this one guy. M* called to check on "his girls" (whatever dude!) that's what he calls us! I said that I was checking my matches on e Harmony.....even heard a pin drop over the phone? Well I hadn't until that night...he was mad, mad, mad! He was quickly trying to get off of the phone because he was pissed, but I kept asking him about his day etc. Finally, we hung up! I sat patiently waiting for my phone to alert me that I had a txt msg! Ahhh, it finally arrived! He said that he wanted to get everything finalized legally with G* and that he wants her 50% of the time and that he wants it done before there are any external influences! Okay, hold the phone buddy, this chick he has been seeing has been MORE than an influence in our life, so that s*&% won't fly! I tried to call him to see what more he had to say but he wouldn't answer the phone! Puss! The next day he txt me and said that he was afraid of losing "my girls!" Are you and nauseous as I am right now? I txt him and told him that it wasn't fair for him to see and sleep with someone else, but I can't even look for someone to be with! Total double standard! He never txtd me back by the way! So then I go to drop G* off before work and there she is at his house doing whatever it is she does.....makes herself present! Well, I have ranted and raved enough, my fingers are hurting from me pounding the keys because I am still a little worked up about the whole thing. There are two things I think about daily in relation to M* 1.) Why oh why did I tell him I was pregnant? I could have totally gotten away with never seeing him again! and 2.) If I hadn't already seen them with my own two eyes I would not believe that this man has any balls at all.....his only proof is that he has two children! Exhale! I know all of this is happening for a reason....mainly because I haven't nipped it in the bud yet! Goodnight all!

Ahhhh, a night without a child!

So some of my friends and I got together last night for sushi at Sakura. We had planned this about a month ago because of our busy schedules. It was with some folks I used to work at Methodist with....2 girls and 2 guys docs. Well, the guys had to back out because their wives went out instead, which I am sure they totally deserved and so it was just us girls, which was fine! It had originally been suggested that we take the sushi over to Steve's house and eat there, but I put an end to that quickly! I can stay at home and eat sushi by myself, I wanted to go out in public, be waited on and have no child in a highchair next to me banging on the table! So we met and had dinner, they were ready to go their separate ways after that since one of them has a new boyfriend and the other one has a new girlfriend....obviously some things had changed since we had last seen each other:) So here it is 9:3o and I am on my way home....ugh! I ended up going to Wal Mart to pick up some things....not the best idea! Has anyone ever been to the Wal Mart on 96th Street at 10:00 at night? Not good! Oh well, I made it out alive! I guess someday I will have a man to go home to as well.....I won't hold my breath on that one! It was nice to get out anyway!

Like music to my ears!

Well, after months and months...okay, maybe just a month, of listening to Gabi say da da da da repeatedly she has blessed my ears with ma ma ma ma! I love it! She just walks around the house saying it over and over! I don't think that it is purposeful, but I will take whatever I can get at this point! She is actually pretty silly....the apple doesn't fall far from the tree I guess:) She shifts her hips from side to side when she dances and she has started this dance move where she thrusts (for lack of a better word) her hips forward and her shoulders back and vice versa over and over...until she overdoes it and falls down! I have know idea where that came from, but all I have to say is watch out boys, we have a live one on our hands! Takes me back to my Ball State days....just give her a table and she's good to go! No, not my little angel, right? How do you hide all of the bad things you did as a kid from your kids??? I must figure that one out! Off to playgroup!

Quit shutting the door!!!

Okay, so Gabi has figured out how to push the doors shut and pull them open. She did this awhile ago, but she has added something funny to it! The other day I was in the entryway, which is right by the den and I heard her crying. I walked around the corner and the door was shut and so I pushed it open. She looked up at me like "where have you been!" but she pushed the door shut again and then started crying again, like she just didn't get where mommy went! Today she did the same thing after her bath she was playing in her room and I was in the hallway....she walked over to the door and started pushing it shut. I said "okay, your gonna start crying when you don't see mommy anymore" and of course her 10.5 month old self surely understood me! However, she continued to shut it. It took about 10 seconds for her to start bawling! I pushed it open just enough so that she could see me and she stopped crying and then pushed it shut again and started crying again! Too funny! Just thought I had to share! Sorry for the long drawn out story.....it was better in person! Goodnight all!

Breastfeeding boob blues!

Okay, so some of you might be tired of hearing of my gripes of the emotional scars that I have been left with since breastfeeding, but too bad! So today I went out to lunch with a friend at no other than the Cheesecake Factory (don't forget about $1.50 cheesecake on Wed. 7/30....you have to buy an entree though!) Anyhow, I figured since we were at the mall I would run up to Vickie's and get some new bras, since my current ones just aren't doing the trick! So I tell the girl (who was probably a teenager) that I need to be measured because I am sure that I am not the same size since breastfeeding! Amazingly enough she said that I was the same size but that "my breast tissue probably isn't in the same place it used to be!" No kidding, thank you for that, I was not aware!!! So I tried on some different styles all the while Gabi is walking around the dressing room, putting her hands all over the mirror and stinking up the room with her poop! Great timing that girl has I tell ya! So I decide on one style that happens to be a push up bra. Now, I am usually anti push up bras because I feel that they are false advertisement, but I figured a) I am advertising to no one right now and b) if I should start advertising to someone, I'd best have something to show! Ahhh, the life of a single mom;) So I of course buy 2 (black and nude...are there any other colors?) and hey why not some unds 3 for $30 and a free pair too with a coupon I had! So $120 later Gabs and I are strolling out of the store! I must say, I am feelin' pretty "perky" right now. It is amazing how good a new bra feels....it has been quite a while since I had bought one! I am sure that you are all glad to know my bra story! On a happier and less weird note....tonight when I was dropping Gabi off at her daddy's house before work she walked up to me and gave me a hug and wouldn't let go until I picked her up! When I handed her to Mark she started crying! For those of you who know Mark and I's lovely life story I hope you think it is as funny as I did! Tee hee hee!

She does the cutest things!

Okay, so it has been awhile since I posted anything! I am really bad about keeping up on this kind of thing! Anyway, tonight at dinner she made a complete mess of EVERYTHING!! Luckily I had gotten a plastic throw for the floor under her chair since she likes to clear her tray of all food when she is done eating. Needless to say the tarp is covered with broccoli, sweet potatoes and tuna casserole! I do not even want to go in there and clean it up! So she got a bath after dinner and as always, I sit her up on the changing table to brush her hair and lotion her up and when I laid the brush down, she picked it up and acted like she was brushing her hair! HOW SWEET! I know I got tears in my eyes! I'm a sucker for my kid, what can I say. Oh, what will she do next???? What did I do before I had her? I really can't remember..... Well, I am off to clean up the mess! Wish me luck!